Why the hell didn't we do that months ago???!!!
So last night went well. Let me remind you that we didn't end co-sleeping, we just put the family bed to rest (until such time as it is needed again, perhaps). Husband spent the night in Ethan's room and while Ethan did wake up a few times and need a quick cuddle back to bed, he slept in longer stretches than he has in our bed. So tonight is night #2 of Operation BBB. Unless I report otherwise, it is a go from here on out.
How did I do? Well. I won't lie. I did get close to 9 hours of uninterrupted sleep and I'd be a complete fool to say it wasn't absolutely. blissful. I truly can't put into words how extravagant it feels to have that kind of time a.) alone & b.) asleep. And since Husband and I are on a 2-night rotation during this first phase of Operation BBB, I have another night of peaceful slumber ahead of me (aaaaand, now I will be up all night tossing and turning for sure).
BUT, I cried. Not big sobby wailing cries. But teary-eyed, wistful, "stare at the empty bed sprawling out around me, missing my baby" cries. It was harder than I thought it would be to have him in the other room, emotionally speaking. I wasn't worried (didn't even have a monitor with me) because Husband was in there--this gradual process is as much for us as it is for him. But I did go through a whole "sunrise/sunset" sort of nostalgia (God help his future wife; I am going to be a crazy woman at his wedding some day if I can't handle his transition to a big boy bed without shedding tears and humming Fiddler on the Roof tunes in my head).
So there it is. I am going to bed early tonight to horde my sleep because Sunday and Monday nights, I'm "on". I'm actually kind of looking forward to it....